Breakdowns, Breakdowns!

Life is good and bad. Good because, I recognize that there is nothing wrong in breakdowns. Because I realize that life looks tough only because I am ambitious.

Its bad because, I am not learning from my mistakes.

I did not do what I said I will do. Forget about being punctual about them.

I really wanna build this habit of  doing what I said I’ll do by the time I said I’ll do it. Really.

Life is far from perfect. Lets make it rock!

In the past few days, I have been my powerful self. I have refused to accept that things are impossible and I am just beginning to realize what being true to your purpose is.

But if I take the holistic picture, life is still a breakdown. I am not meeting my friends or speaking to my family, regularly. I am not exercising, neither am I waking up at 5. I am not keeping my house spic and span. Not washing my clothes regularly and almost nothing is planned. I am not reading either.

Ok, so I put all these things together in my life from tomorrow onwards.

Truly converting all my ORs to ANDs.

There are a lot things that I had said I’ll do by the weekend.

• Doing 100 volumes in sales and recruiting 1 person in my team by tomorrow 3PM. I did only 66 volumes and haven’t recruited anyone yet! But I have time till 3PM
• Putting up the Startup Pains research website. (This will be done tomorrow)
• Interviewing 2 people. This again will be done by tomorrow.
• Memorizing my dialogs. Tough, but I have to memorize them by tomorrow.
• Inviting 15 people for my workday.
• Fixing the date for an HILF and a CILF. I am not enrolled to making this happen.

Freaks, its too much.

And I’ll make all of this and the ones above it happen tomorrow, and onwards.

I already have a headache imagining how seemingly tough it looks. This is when I shall grow.

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A few journal entries,

Did my rehearsals today. Not sure how good or bad they were. I forgot my dialogs left, right and center

Met my college buddy Siddharth Banerjee today after a long long time. He is like a family to me. It felt awesome. Got calls from Krishna and Prateek, both came as a surprise. Felt real fortunate in life!

Yet another sexy new possibility – Theater!

It was Aashish who called me up at 10 in the morning yesterday saying that their troupe is short of 1 guy for their play – “The Death of a Salesman”. He asked if I was interested, I immediately said YES. I went gave an audition and I got selected.

I had done a couple of plays in my school. I was the best actor in the Hindi play and I forgot my dialog in the English play!

I have to be truly extraordinary to make it to the rehearsals though. Been heavily out integrity in terms of work. I have at least 20 items in my to do list, stuff that I should have done by now but haven’t.

In fact, I was about to inform Aashish of my inability to participate because I had a lot of other work to be done. But when I thought for it a little more, I realized that what I was thinking was – ‘I am not good enough to manage all these things together‘. I dropped the conversation and said ‘hell, I am‘.

I have invented a sexy new possibility of replacing all the ORs of my life with ANDs. That is, I usually say, I can either do this OR do that. What I have taken on is, to do this AND that. All you need to have, to do this , is -

• Integrity (honoring your word),
• Existence Mechanism (Reminders in phone and daily/weekly/monthly planning),
• Relationships (ability to make powerful requests) and
• Powerful Communication.

Thats all it takes.

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Wow! I had always imagined doing theater in Bangalore. That is happening!

Art is happening.

Dance is next!

A sexy new possibility.

Here comes another bullet post. I’ll finish writing this within 7 minutes.

A whole new possibility came to my mind today when I was thinking of my Ma’am. (Mrs Kamal Baduni. My teacher from APS Dagshai who is just like a mother to me). I anyways think of her a few times every week! But this time I thought of going and staying with her. I was thinking about going home and thought it would be so wonderful if I could stay with her also!

Thinking of the same a wonderful new possibility came to my mind. How about traveling the country staying with my friends and family all the time! Sounds great doesn’t it? There are a few hitches though. 1 its not practical. Not the travel part of it but the money part of it. If I am not earning then the experience will be more painful than fun for me.

So the next imp question is – “How do I earn money while consistently being on the move?”. Well there are many ways.

• I can become a blogger. This blog + my yet to be started tech blog + my handwriting analysis website can fetch me sufficient money.
• Also I can conduct – Handwriting Analysis workshops and do some live analysis in malls for fun. This way I can earn money.

The next problem is Computer! I don’t have a laptop yet and I would need one. Anyways I have kept “Buying a laptop and a sexy cell phone” in this years targets. I just have to focus on buying it soon enough.

So how much money should I earn every month such that I can easily go and have fun? I guess 40k a month will be sufficient.

Buttttt… What about my entrepreneural dreams? Well, this is a tough question. I’ll need some time to work it out.

But the possibility is wonderful!

Aha.. I have taken 11 minutes already. Its gonna take me another minute to put the tags and publish. But good I am improving on writing bullet posts!